Monthly Archives: August 2015




OK, here is a straight information. A long time ago, there used to be really, real,  free movie websites on the web._drunkbummy__by_meninasuitcase

– – that means, “there USED TO BE.” There no longer are. They have either all been taken down, or they exist in this kind of situation;checking_the_recipe_by_ravenswd

there are torrents, which are pretty risky at best because you are asked to download them all without knowing what is on and then it gets into your computer. That is why torrents are very, very risky. And if you are lucky enough to find a site of torrents that are really honest, they do not last for very long. And there’s no way you’re going to get any free new movies.also, torrents are very tricky and you have to get the right software to download torrents and then to find the website that actually have real torrents and are not a bunch of jerk mall ware or viruses.otter_bounce_by_jeanawei1234-d53jru2

also, there are websites that Seem to be free; they are fakes. You always have to give them your credit card, before you can watch anything. This is absolutely 100% necessary. And you should not do it. You are going to get conned! So all of those very modern and even the on modern websites that tell you, you can get free movies, are all LIES. Absolutely LIES. Especially the ones you find on Google, they’re all lies. And that even includes YOUTUBE, especially! There used to be free movies on YouTube but, no more. Now all you will get is advertisements.gravity___stamp_by_mdkofdoom

You will also findwebsites that have collections of so-called “best free websites” and then when you go to those websites. They tell you about, they are NOT FREE. Those are sponsors that are telling you, they are free websites and they are, once again, NOT FREE. There are NO FREE MOVIES anywhere, even on project TV. That’s over with. Also.flyinglove

I can also add that there wants WAS, or WERE, quite a few real genuine free movie websites and they are either over with, or they are impossible to find anything on, because there whole database is hidden from all sides, so that the Fed cannot take them off. However, what happens to this is, YOU cannot find any movies on there either! There are no film or movie indexes! Two of these are; stage vu, and Neither one of these have any index, or anyway of finding movies inside their databases.EmoTeV_by_Sinister_Starfeesh

They are all HIDDEN._secretlaugh_by_sml_e – – IF there actually are any watchable movies on their. That is debatable. So you would have to be an extreme techie, , to invade those sites databases, just to find out what is on would probably need extra special hacker tools. And you would have to be extra special hackerKill_em_all just to get in there and see what movies are in their. I sure cannot do it, and I am very familiar with both of these websites.there is also “project TV”arhh, 1161.gif Ontvwhich no longer has anything on, and is also riddled by block up ad blocking everything. Also, “”llama which also used to be a good movie website.the other old time religion pirate website is, “pirate”pirateattack or “pirate”panlong-dragonand it also has a nonnegotiable, completely hidden database,free_avi___sleepingmoon_by_seiorai-d2ahcwv and is questionable whether there is actually anything on their anyhow.there is also one that used to be very prolific and obviously it is called “putlocker.,com”shifty however, the only one left, has practically nothing on it, and it also has very aggressive mall where and blocking ads.Cream_and_Racoongirl_emoticon_by_zimpy222.

Google search engine will not tell you of any actually free movie websites anymore. They are blocking all of them, if there are any left. Which I doubt.confuse

The only thing left is, CHINA. rainbowflowerzChina has their own free movie websites most of it is in Chinese. Not all of it;Tudoc or Tudo, or Tudou, (that last one is correct) does have movies but how are you going to find them.omg If they are in Chinese? Yes, the people who have free movie websites left are probably China and India.Fella_Go_Boom_by_de_Mote Good luck. Most of it’s not in English or American made.

so, I am sorry to burst your bubble, but if I cannot go on.shakefist(1) There, on the web and find free movie sites anymore, which actually have support, websites with real movies on them, they don’t have mall where that’s going to kill your computer,_intardnet__by_leoleonardo then there aren’t any. Believe me I am pretty certain, and I have just about ground everything to a fine mush, looking all over the web for hours. There may be a few very tiny_escapingsuperllama__by_meninasuitcase little sites which brag about having movies, but even that is debatable. They are mostly fan sites– – which means they are talking about and celebrating the movies, but they don’t have any real links to them and they don’t have any real copies of them.omfg___emote_by_mdkofdoom

there are also a few free “private movie club websites.”78b5e0709fbf12841b76049293b3a2d6-d6hdnrj Which still claim, to have free movies on them or links to them, but if they don’t have the actual movies on the site, there are not any links left to other sites which really have the movies._filmaddict__by_vanmall

Mostly missing now, are any actual websites that actually CONTAIN the movies THEMSELVES. ahhThey have all been shut down or they have been surrounded with mall ware and viruses and FBI and Corporation roadblocks.however, you can find a few of these; “antique movies websites with a few antique movies on them.” stamp_collection_by_krissi001-d671pp5 There are couple of them, but they are very limited and you are going to have to like black and white very old, rather badly filmed often, old movies. That’s it. There are very, very old movies available, a few, which are out of copyright. There are a few archives, but they are very limited. I could probably count them on one hand, or half of one would be much better off getting a subscription on cable TV to Turner classic movies.signsorry

these are all the situations of free movies or very2unsure free torrents, that I know about, and they are extremely slim, even those few. Watch out for “solar movie”,Smiley PC you can get your computer and trapped and not be able to do anything about it but close down your computer and hope for non-injury.hyper_glomp_by_soulnova

Most of us have got used to the idea that online and on the web, shithappens   walk_by_sackofsquan-d5w8ix7there are no free lunches anymore. There are also no free movies, aside from something that you would want to watch anyway, or is completely unwatchable noir in form. We suggest that you get familiar with your local movie theaters,hardrockangel and Netflix,Mac_Love_by_Furatix and especially cable TV movie03  happycry or satellite TV.

Let’s face it, you’re going to have to PAY sob TO WATCH MOVIES NOW.this is not the  movie01.gif spaceman sml world 60s and the 70s  suneye.gif beatnik or even the 80sfeelingfreeplz anymore. All of that is over.needpillsplz – – – The managementknittingfda0c8fdffc0b3d280cc94dbb4ebb4cd-d684tte

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here we are again, and it is the end of August; it is still very hot in Eugene, Oregon, even though no sun is out. And we are going to be very calm and relaxed as we explain our problem of buying a book. online.paranoid (1)

This should be very easy; we have been told that shopping online is easy and fast and not confusing. That is what we have been told. However, at this point I am being driven to brick and mortar bookstores, because I am so frustrated at just trying to buy a book online.netlove

HOW HARD IS THAT SUPPOSED TO BE?.ANSWER: it’s simple! tangodan

I have bought plenty of books and other things online before, and it was not a problem. However, in the last few years it has been a great problem, and very difficult to buy something from Ditto the fabulous discount website “new”_happydancer__by_synfull-d2yt8vs

 It is really something, when you can’t buy anything off anymore, without being a computer engineer from Hewlett-Packard!thedon

I am not a dummy on the computer, even though I am a senior. I could not be such a dummy and have this blog, and write on it, handle all the Dragon NaturallySpeaking software, and then get everything to come out right here. So what is up with AMAZON?why can’t they even sell you a book anymore? shakefist


I did everything correctly, but the password software refused to accept my password after it changed it, the way they wanted me to. Take that, Amazon! So I couldn’t even get into the site! What the hell was I supposed to do? Their software didn’t work! cutevampire

so I googled their customer service phone number, long-distance and I called them up. What I got was a little voice from the Philippines, didn’t know what the hell I was talking about. And she said “I am so sorry. There is a problem with your password.” And then I gave her every single bit of personal information, technically, that they want! Guess what: computer_avatar_by_devlant

they still could not identify me. I have had an account with for years, and suddenly, they won’t let me into the website, they can’t identify me and they don’t know where the hell my account is! Isn’t that something for efficiency? And, this little cute voice on the end of the line, has decided that they can’t identify me at all, I should come back some other time. Or something like that.  confuse


PLEASE, MOGULS, START hiring Americans for customer service work, because trying  to talk to untamed employees,is traumatizing;And, they can’t still find your account. Absolutely wonderful!



(AND, If you decide to vote for real estate billionaire celebrity, Donald Trump. may the spell of Goldwater fall upon you!  You will likely have multiple WARS to make Bush look like a peacenick! Not that I like Democrats; I just don’t trust a social-security-and-medicare-killer in the White house AGAIN!   (YES, THAT’S YOU, OBAMA!) ff21.gif drunk 

 REPUBLICAN LEADERS HATE OLD PEOPLEact13.gifwildnutscrazy They want us to dissapear, and not be a burden, after they’ve stripped  us of all the fed. taxes they could get.that goes for the fed. govt. too;flag_usa


SANDRAMINA LOSES THE POINT, KIND OF:   Desintigrate_Ninja_by_de_Mote

( But I am missing my other point; Brazos, I hope that your wife got half of everything you own, it would only be fair considering how your is now screwing all your customers up.) _treehugger___reupload_by_Rebel2206

Oh, so then I went to find a whole list of other bookstores, online, and I gave up on just to buy a book. I did go to a few others, that were very large, and I engaged with Albris bookstore, which is supposed to be pretty good. I found the same book for a little bit more money and also a shipping charge. But I decided if they did it go right, it was worth the money.ff07.gif readbook

at first, checking out, I thought that it was very straightforward and simple. However, it had one problem; it kept repeating itself over, for giving them my financial information, as if I were buying the same thing over and over.   ??? And these people did not have a 800-number for clearing up customer service problems. –fuckyeahplz – Even though they were a lot smaller than Amazon.scared

I have to admit that I have not been very calm and rational lately; I have had very bad recollections of PTSD, lately and bad things have happened. I started remembering a whole lot of junk and also a whole lot of bad feelings. This has upset me very much, to the point of yelling and screaming a lot.hysterical watexcitedplz

You know what I mean, if you are an abuse survivor. (But I don’t want to talk about that now.)chickendanceplz

but I shared a lot of the same problems with my friend in Michigan, and I decided to send her the same book I have, as it didn’t cost very much and it was a wonderful compendium on trauma. All different was a very, very good informational book. So I wanted to buy her a copy of it.lovehug8195883cad84e28a1c9e6520bd4a88eb-d5uwbud

imagine my disgrace and shame, finding out that trying to buy a book on trauma, would include GIVING ME ONLINE SHOPPING TRAUMA! it didn’t make sense, except that since I had a very bad past trauma, as an abuse survivor, I was deliberately shopping online for a book, from websites that would take advantage of me, and screw up their software, so I couldn’t buy the book. In other words, I was subconsciously repeating the abuse online.  _starewoo__by_dbestarchitect

How pathetic.horror04.gifmorehorribleharrasshorror

I guess Dr. Herman will have to add a new passage of different kind of trauma, that exists, through trying to shop online, from huge corporations and book companies, etc. – – and how we survivors are driven to hysterically run out to BRICK and mortar stores, to find our books instead! _raincloud__rvmp_by_bad_blood


And to think that  what we are all worriedly wondering now is “have we abuse survivors opened ourselves up deliberately, to being abused by huge booksellers online?” The answer is:HKhellokitty07cringscreaming

NO, it is the dumb fault of the stupid damn huge booksellers online, who don’t take care of their customer service anymore, they are too busy getting rich. Just like any other kind of business; when  it gets too big and rich ,and HUGE, MONSTROUSLY RICH, the customer service goes down  the toilet. ontoilet_coprastasophobia__by_crakaemotes

GURGLE-GLURGLE-FLOOOOSH! _droplet__by_sparklydest

Sigh. I still have not been able to buy my book. I will probably pick up a phone book (how quaint!) and look up bookstores in Eugene and Springfield to see if they have my book.And for how much. Considering that Lane county was voted by investigators to have the most child abuse, and child-sexual abuse in all Oregon, it’s a good bet that book is floating around here, getting picked up every single day, and not  even bought online. _nothappy__by_a_kid_at_heart-d5mavr5

Why put yourself thru more trauma, as a survivor, while trying to buy a book on the subject? That is very unhealthy behavior. I can say that for sure.  🙂       arhh

(Sandraminadotty, touting the return of feminism armed and mobilized to hack up corporation book sellers everywhere, and online! “WE REFUSE TO SUBMIT TO MORE CORPORATION TRAUMA! GO BACK TO THE BOARD ROOM, AND TELL THE CEO WE RAGING ABUSED-BY-AMAZON-ACTIVISTS- WON’T TAKE IT ANYMORE! _molotovcocktail__by_Waluigi_Prowerscreamingzombie2_objection__by_de_mote  get_of_mah_lawn_by_de_mote w00t againjasonkills

“REMEMBER, WE’VE GOT THE BOMB!” soapboxmad1106

(Rebellishly, Sandraminadotty, bringing back the 60’s in Eugene, OR! Like, Groovy, Man! ” NO, NO, WE WON’T GO! SHOPPING ONLINE ANY MORE!  ” YAHH! 🙂                  sparkle_out_of_the_hat_by_benediktxvii-d5usignbeta_to_senior_by_de_motehookah_by_chimajra-d30bpceThe_Playful_Threes_by_KimRaiFanzaku-man_lovelybigwheel__by_meninasuitcase-d2zfcubbe_a_happy_tard_by_krissi001-d6hozohi_love_you_emoticon_by_Xercethfree_avi___sleepingmoon_by_seiorai-d2ahcwvsparklyrose_by_chimajra-d3k4o93seniority_rulez_by_de_motepiano_mote_by_indigojellycircus_ball_project_entry_by_droneguardhappycroatiaflag1Bliss_by_NaturallyPerfect_leapfrog__by_akira_miyashir0uffhandshak1ea67fc5da987675c061e92a13a93f20lovedrunk_by_lunarbluewolffloraisonact17.gifdiscoqueenswhoopie240krasbotold_hat_by_jamal1-d18kb4agrog__grog__grog_by_tantetabata-d6vgb30betterrrflyingheart



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.here I am in Eugene, Oregon, on the phone to my bank (the names have been changed to protect the innocent bank) and I am trying to get a hold of an agent ,Dodge the telephone robot, but it doesn’t work. She wants to know all this information.eager

“What is your card number?” I tell her. “What is your checking account number?” I tell her again. What is your debit card number again?” I give it to her again.”what is your pin number?”I give that to her. “What is the last four numbers of your Social Security card?” I give that to her. “What is your phone number?” I give that to her and yawn.oofgleeye686

“What is your address?” I give that to her, verbally. “What is your name?” I give her my name and some local swearing..”what is your weight?” I really give her some local  swearing, and fudge the number on my weight. “How tall are you?”Eye_roll_by_Cinyke

At this point I’m getting really exasperated. “What was the last name of your mother’s maiden name, and the last maiden name of your grandmother by your mother?” She is very lucky. I happen to know the whole thing, and yes, there are some Jews in their, and other things I don’t want to talk about. FRENCH. Maybe some African-American; let’s see what else? They were in the Civil War.toexplodewithlaughter

Oh,and the blueblood of the Revolutionary war, and also some Amish and Mennonite, to settle it, on my dad’s side..but I really don’t think that rumor about my dad’s family is true, and that there is Cherokee in it.maybe Little Sioux Indian. Not much.neinmann

“agent– agent –agent– agent – –” I start mollifying this machine, and give her own stuff back. And she picks up on it and says, “please hold while I get an agent for you.” (“And while you’re at it, why don’t you dip yourself in motor oil, and go back to the Middle East, sweetie!”)talkoncellphonesecuredownload

but the most embarrassing thing when I go to the bank, or when I call them up, (I hate doing online banking because I know a bunch of hackers, and really nasty criminals online, that exist, and they can hack into your account in two seconds, and find out every single thing and every number, and every piece of  info. and money you’ve got.if the federal government can’t hold off the hackers, how can I?) – – The most embarrassing thing when I talked to a banker, is saying this:ohmygod

“no, I would not like to talk about you giving me a loan. We don’t do that in my family.”there is a pause from the banker, and she asks,” what do you mean?” I answer, “we don’t do that in my family; we don’t take out LOANS. If we don’t have the money, to pay for it, We don’t buy it.”shakehead

there is an audible gasp from the other end of the line. Once again, I have terrified a bank agent, and surprised the hell out of them, that anything like that exists in America. I am embarrassed to death, and she can’t see me blushing and turning bright purple. This happens all the time. I guess I had better get used to it.xmen05wolverine

“What I mean is, my family was very old-fashioned and frugal, and they worked hard and saved all their money, and invested it, and they only bought things that they could pay for. We don’t believe in getting lots of loans and we don’t go around with lots of credit cards.” There was another audible gasp, and coughing, at the other end, I had gone over the line with this poor was true that my sister had a mortgage, on her nice little old, overpriced home in California, but that was unusual for my family.prayer

But I did not like to talk to bankers, or any kind of financial people, and admit this horrible truth about my nuclear family. We did not go around getting loans and borrowing money. We did not go around using credit cards unless we absolutely had to (I believe that my sister at one time had to have a credit card, just to buy stuff for identification or something? She was a lot more modern, and she had to put up with all that financial guff.) But the rest of my family, Just did not do that.sherlock

And I had been poor, A lot of my life, and the one time I had a Macy’s card, it took me a whole year to pay off $85 worth of makeup. It just was not worth it. It certainly was not. My sister had said, “go ahead and get a Macy’s card, so you can establish credit.” What credit? Poor people don’t have any credit! They want cash from us! Besides that, if I were middle class and made a lot of money, or just had some money, and they would give me credit cards,it would go against my family tradition.chopwoodsmiley-chores017

Very poor people and very poor families have this tradition; you can’t buy anything unless you have the dough. Nobody let us get away with inflating the economy, that’s for wealthy people to do. But the poor and the poor– working? No way, they don’t let us inflate the economy that’s only for the billionaires and the upper-middle-class, and especially for THE FEDERAL GOVERNMENT.clap2

So it was very embarressing, when people at parties or any social gatherings, found out that I didn’t use credit cards, I didn’t get loans, that my family actually owned the tiny house I lived in, and stuff like that, and there was never a mortgage on it, I would be embarrassed right into the next celestial world. people looked at me very oddly, when I said that our family built the house themselves.mwahaha

they looked at me, as if I were from another world. And they probably all thought I was a Mennonite.

Not true; also, I do not belong officially to the Lubavitcher Chabad, or the Amish. – – Although I do go on the Lubavitcher Chabad website, and read, and talk to, and discuss things with them, because I think they’re pretty smart, and I respect them.newelectronicdance

I don’t think they would let me in their organization. Too many weird things, too many weird people in my background.but then, who were they to Judge? One of those Chabad organizations, believes that in the future, technology and the metaphysics of the celestial world, and God, will merge together, and somehow work together.magicalkiss

Sounds logical. That’s okay. But to the rest of the world, it’s as weird as not using loans, and not using credit cards, and not using mortgages if we don’t have to..– and building your own house from scratch.teethyspoint09

(Take that, Jimmy Carter. I hope you feel a whole lot better, but you know how the big C is.)sadfrownlittlec.

I continued to the agent, “are you okay?” She stopped, coughing and gasping, and I could hear her drinking some water. “It’s all right, we bankers have to – – put up with a lot – –” and we ended our little financial session, and I apologized for shocking her so badly.”I really am sorry,” I continued, that happens to a lot of people, when I tell them.” She was a little standoffish, and very stolidly said, thank you very much, have a nice day.” – Like she couldn’t stand, to get off the phone, and I would infect her over the telephone wires.Practice_by_world_in_flames

oh well.flyingspaghettimonster

I’ll have to stop just telling people, cold like that, without giving them some kind of warning, and telling them that my family actually does that; avoids getting mortgages, mostly, doesn’t use credit cards, and doesn’t use loans. Not that we wouldn’t like to, but we’d rather not get into debt, along with the rest of the country and the government,it’s just very old-fashioned of us. And I like being that way. But it’s horrendously embarrassing, it shocks the hell out of everybody.shake_head_by_fire_kitty_666-d4id8eg

it’s the way that people used to be, if they found out you were gay; but now it’s wonderful to be gay, and it is NOT WONDERFUL, to be frugal, save your money, invest it, and not live beyond your income.newrighthandzombiechase

if I said out loud that I was a lesbian, that would be great. But the way I am, in reality? I dare not speak the name of shame. FRUGAL. TIGHT. CHEAP. SAVING. That last one is really horrible.I’ve actually seen people faint in front of me._crying__rvmp_by_bad_blood

too bad there isn’t another country with people just like me that I could move to, and get out of this stupid fucking, financial ,CRAP, that I live in, called the United States of America; whose first religious indoctrination is in using credit, using loans, using mortgages, and not worrying about getting into debt.– – which of course is why we are now owned by China, and probably the World  Bank, if I remember rightly.bek047.gif chinese emoticon

and if the Chabad in any branch of it, are anything like me, I would probably join them right now, (except that I just can’t stand wearing that much black! It reminds me of New York City ) but I think even they are too modern to accept me, the way I am.ghostgomote

and forget the Amish, I really am too old and broken down physically, to start learning how to do everything by hand, again. As much as I like their quilting designs, they remind me of the ones from the Pennsylvania Dutch, back east where my dad’s family came from. knittingfda0c8fdffc0b3d280cc94dbb4ebb4cd-d684tte

I’ll just have to remain the anachronism that I am, but try not to blurt it out, too much, in public without warning, so I don’t give the next person a heart attack. Nobody probably suspects that there are any of us left, we Puritans of finances, creaky, cheap, frugal, and definitely watching our bottom line. jacktheripper

the worst thing of all is, I am definitely not supporting the federal government standards, and belief systems, and I am probably what’s known as a “radical terrorist” in that respect. It makes me sick when I watch old movies, and they talk about all the gold in Fort Knox, (that was a James Bond movie).I just almost get sick to my stomach, it just sounds so great. Sigh. cocoloveplz

(SANDRAMINADOTTY, THAT RADICAL FINANCIAL TERRORIST, going against every known principal of the known modern world, especially in America; where socialism is believed to be able to CREATE MONEY without any kind of BUSINESS or production of any kind, and Capitalism is a dirty word .  millitary_emotes_by_didakaforever_busy_by_kinnisonarc-d3cafuw

If anyone knows of the principled financial country, I have requested to find, above, please leave a comment below, and I may  definitely consider emigrating; or at least vacationing there. Who knows, maybe the left over cannibals of New Guinea are the only ones cause they build their own grass huts, and don’t have mortgages on em.)  😉    🙂    Laser_Gun_by_Argetlam_Br_01evil_woooooooOO__3_by_MenInASuitcasellamatrade_by_cookiemagikstrong_sniper__by_ser1x (1)death_ray_by_cookiemagikempllamakrasbotscaredemplllamahuntercan__t_swat_buggy_by_fear_the_brilliancespyedvsjarkkatanaflamedyoudamote37 (1)ak47 (1)USluxraison_by_cottonbby-d5arb2nThe_Evil_Black_Cursor_by_KimRaiFanCleaning_the_earth_by_hsn2555rotom_mow_by_creepyjellyfish-d7a493afirelite-photosuicide (1)_turret__by_ScreamingGerbil_rocketlauncher_by_ScreamingGerbilsniper_shoot_by_madb0y-d3eua66ninjabattleat_war_by_web5ter-d52dde3Get_Away_with_a_Tank_by_madb0yshooting-tankAddicted_to_weapons___part_2_by_hsn2555





that was me,after I got back from the doctor. I met Carolyn, at the restaurant, and she said, “how did it go?” I answered. “I don’t know,” and started to order something to eat. Carolyn looked at me puzzled; “what you mean you don’t know? What did he say?” Puzzled further Carolyn, at me. I puzzled back; “I don’t know. He never says anything anymore he just looks at me with his blank stare!”.

I was indeed the above jellyfish, quivering in the water, afraid and sure that a shark was going to come by and eat me up. Or, I was going to go to my doctor, and he would look at me with that fishy stare.– – which means, that after quite a few years of being his patient, he doesn’t know who I am, what I am, or anything about me, especially that I’m allergic to penicillin. He especially does not remember that when he writes out a prescription for an antibiotic.and this is a young doctor, not an old guy with burnout!

but at peace health Hospital Corporation, and all its clinics, it’s the young doctors who have burnout, and it’s the old doctors who have retired, so they don’t have to have anything to do with socialized medicine. it’s the young doctors, like Dr. Yah, my young Asian Dr.,who can’t remember my name or anything else about me, even though he’s seen me for years.

that’s what peace health Hospital Corporation clinics and systems do to them; the huge torturous schedule, they run them through, they burn out early, and you die, because they don’t even know what you’re allergic to any more.

I looked at Carolyn, and pondered (I do that really well); “maybe I should go to another clinic?” I said. She looked at me blankly, also; “it won’t do any good, they’re all the same. All the HMOs, and the Medicare clinics, and all the older people and us baby boomers, we all get the same Dr.s; they all graduated from the same specialty school, “idiots anonymous” and with a side specialty in “didn’t I see you last summer? –, or were you a patient? –. I don’t remember your name!–” it doesn’t do any good unless you’re very, very wealthy, with excellent insurance.

“We’re all stuck with the idiot new young doctors who couldn’t give a shit, send you to a psychiatrist because they don’t want to give you a diagnosis, it’s too much work; and they wouldn’t be able to remember what you’re allergic to, even if you had the biggest malpractice suit against them in the country.

“They don’t care! That’s because they are all either BURNED OUT, or they really just don’t give a SHIT! They don’t like the insurance, so they don’t want to work anymore!” I nodded at her, she was right. Unless we were super wealthy,,we were all in the same boat.

I too, was in the brave new world of medicine, where you have Medicare or Medicaid, or both, and they suck it all up.these hospitals and clinics just love that money!

But if you get sick seriously, you’re in a lot of trouble; your Dr. won’t diagnose you, he won’t remember your name, and he’ll think that your “tennis elbows” are a sign of rheumatoid arthritis without testing.– – yeah, if you really get seriously sick, you better call the funeral home, make out your will, and prepare to be inundated with morphine (hopefully.)

– – you’re in Eugene, Oregon, and you are stuck with the insurance that has no health ASSURANCE, and you’re going to die!

“hey,now,” I said to Carolyn as we ate lunch, “maybe I’ll never get disastrously ill or ever get anything seriously wrong with me again; maybe I’ll be lucky.” “Yes,” she answered, swallowing a noodle, “and pigs will fly over Eugene tonight, and I’ll be there with a shotgun to bring home the bacon!” She looked at me grimly; “what you mean you’re never going to get something serious? All of us get something SERIOUS!!  wE ARE OLD!it’s just that, when you finally get something SERUOUS, you need a good enough medical team to get you well from it!”

I looked at her silently, mouthing silently. “What the hell am I supposed to do about it?” She answered me just this silently mouthing out the words “get some good life insurance on you, and then leave a message to your sister. after you die from malpractice,SUE the bloody hell out of the doctor and the hospital Corporation!  At least you can get some type of revenge.”

we both decided not to have any dessert, it was too unhealthy. I had had enough UNHEALTH  that  day.I tried again, “well, if he misdiagnosis me, can I just sue him for malpractice, then get plenty of money so I can get well?” She looked at me again, wistfully wiping her mouth with a napkin, “you know that nobody can SUE that fucking–hospital–clinic–corporation, for malpractice and ever  win!!”

I remembered,, when I had to go to Dr. Chapman, they used to call her “Dr. Chapman the Sadistic,” in the other peacehealthfamily clinic, and she decided,(once again,) that what was wrong with me, was not physical, and she sent me to a psychiatrist – – for BAD FEET! There was no such thing as a bone doctor, and the only foot specialist who was an orthopedist, in all of Lane County, refused to take me because he didn’t like Medicare.

Well, WHO DID LIKE MEDICARE? Not when it’s been cut to shreds!HELL, I didn’t like it either!

Carolyn and I sat there, chewing our cud,while we finished our coffee.”I decided I’m not going to vote Republican, next election, not any Republicans, I’ve decided,” I finally said stirring my coffee. “I finally found out that they’re going to cut Social Security at least 20%, get rid of Medicare and make us get insurance,instead, and get rid of all seniors health benefits.

“. I can handle having Hitler in the presidential office, or HILLARY in it, but I can’t face having myself lying in bed at home, slitting my wrists because I’m dying of something, and I have no insurance of any kind. Not even this stuff!I don’t think patriotism is as important as, “PERSONAL POLITICS.” Meaning, whatever politics keeps you well, healthy and alive, that’s the one you should vote for.” Caroline just smiled at me.

“now you’re getting the spirit of the saying, now you understand!” She said. “Now you get the way this world and this country, runs!! “what’s in it for me?!” That’s the name of the game.” I looked at her mysteriously, and mentioned “but what am I going to do with my doctor, Dr.Yah? if he doesn’t care when I’m sick or when I’m well, how is he going to notice when I’m terribly, terribly ill?” She looked at me grimly.

“HE’S NOT.” She finished shaking her head. “You’re in the same boat with all the rest of us, you’re going to have to go out and find a doctor, and pay him CASH to get you’re going to have to dump Dr. Yah, and send him back to mainland China, where he came from.”

but I looked at Caroline, just as sadly, “but Caroline, that’s what my parents did, years ago when my dad had cancer!PAY MONEY! It cost so much, we had to sell our house and our land, and we didn’t have anywhere to live for a long time! It cost us everything, we lost it all, trying to pay the doctor bills!”I kept looking at her; “isn’t that all supposed to change now? Aren’t you supposed to NOT LOSE EVERYTHING, when you get sick now, since we have insurance?!”.

Carolyn smiled, with that wisdom that only she could possess, with the wisdom of the ages in her eyes, making her look much older, unfortunately. She said gently, “Sandramina, just because you have health insurance, doesn’t mean you have HEALTH ASSURANCE! honey, it just ain’t the same thing at all!”

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(Sandraminadotty, just a jellyfish, in a bowl, getting flushed right down the hole! In Eugene, Oregon).

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here I am, in my old little kitchen, and I have had a gift of that fancy brand popcorn,Orville Redenbachers’ popcorn.

so, how do I pop this new popcorn? If you guys remember the old science fiction stories of the future, or even the Jetsons family in the future, you remember that our future would have all kinds of wonderful, easy to use, technically fancy superduper appliances. – – Which would do all the work automatically, and we wouldn’t have to do it. Well here we are in this fancy future, and it’s not exactly what we thought it was going to be.klink_by_creepyjellyfish-d7a49fu

for one thing, we now have CON – AGRA, the huge massive company that makes all food, just about. And they are in control of this fancy popcorn. So if you try to go and e-mail or talk to any of these people about why you can’t figure out how to microwave your popcorn, at the right speed or hotness, you can’t get a hold of anyone on any of their webpages.NO CUSTOMER SERVICE.SmileyFactory_by_Miamoto (2)

yeah, welcome to the future! We have machines we can’t figure out how to use. We have microwaves we can’t figure out how to POP POPCORN; we have to use the manual, just to figure out how to do it. And it still doesn’t work because the speed and the amount of corn is not the same as the microwave instructions.cute_robot___free_avvie_by_r0se_designs-d4ki7adgif

I was told long ago that I was more technically advanced then people in my age group, but I guess that’s not saying much. I was always the one who could program their VCR. And yet, now I cannot program the stupid microwave at the proper heat and speed. And, when I go on the website of the popcorn company, it turns out to be CONAGRA COMPANY,  and they don’t want to hear from you. Their supposed e-mail connection doesn’t exist.cubiclessmiley-chores015

the only thing that both these companies, the popcorn company and the huge massive food supplier, CONAGRA  have in common, is they both have a Facebook page. Maybe I should thank ZuckerBerg for inventing the only connection to companies who have no customer service and don’t want to give you any.. It is our only outlet to collar them, complain, and tell everybody they are fucking up.super_smash_bros_emote_by_MenInASuitcase

-if anyone actually cares, because WHERE ELSE CAN YOU GO, FOR FOOD SUPPLIES? CONAGRA IS IT.begplz

You can go to local small farms in Oregon, around Lane County, but that’s a long ways to go for your food. You have to drive all around all the different farms, finding your fruits and vegetables. Some people think that’s fun, but only because they’re young. I’m not.Emoticon_Rainbow_by_Shadall

I complained to Carolyn, as usual. “What they hell am I supposed to do, go get a computer education so I can use my microwave popcorn?” And then I thought, “how come all those wonderful science fiction writers didn’t predict this? This was never on Star Trek, they always had food makers that effortlessly made your food to exact specifications, and they tasted good. NO CONAGRA; NO TASTELESS FOOD. No lack of diversity, and complete conformism and boredom of food! Gene Roddenberry, you should turn over in your grave.”Most_of_my_DA_family__Part_Two_by_forestsofazarathexquisitechef

also, the future, the fabulous future, was not supposed to have no choices of food, that would force you to try and go out and raise your own watermelon, (if you could get the seeds on the black market,) Somehow, very expensive. “Antique seeds.” But forget raising your own food; we have major droughts, dry soil, bugs out of control. Welcome to “world climate change” and every other disgusting thing in Oregon,you can think of.huge BANANA SLUGS! And rampant out-of-control BLACKBERRY BUSHES.oddish_by_creepyjellyfish-d7a498b

OR you could spend a lot of gas and energy, running around to all those tiny little farms here, and paying a fortune for a watermelon, IF they were different than the “seedless, tasteless” watermelon in the supermarket.Driving_school_by_Kath602

NO THANK YOU! DO I want to make my life more futile, time-consuming, and harried? Nope!suicide (1)

all these little farms have not gotten together to have a very large farmers market. The one we have is tiny. So much for organically growing people,dancetogether who think we all have tons of gasoline in cars, and TIME, to go visit them and buy their stuff!once again, the fantasy version of “organic, natural, small farm LUXURY”.cresselia_by_creepyjellyfish-d7a43mw

the person who gave me the super Special fancy popcorn, I could not tell what troubles. I was having; I would sound really stupid. so, I guess I’ll try it at a different speed or hotness, and risk burning it. Or, I could just pour all the seeds into a big kettle, and do it over the stove,like the antique. I am.historcial03.gif kitchenstov

“Honey, remember your old granny, when I’m on my deathbed, telling you, can’t you please pop me some of that stupid popcorn before I die? That is my last wish!”_granny__rewamp_by_MenInASuitcase

a lot of things in the fabulous future that were predicted did not work out; nobody predicted thatstrip03.gif hulagirl strip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirlstrip03.gif hulagirl Haiti would not ever be able to feed itself, and would suck off the rest of the world forever. Nobody predicted that lots of the world would get AIDS, and start dying off. EVERYBODY predicted that we would go out into outer space and go to other planets, far, far away, and settle them, and live elsewhere.Futurama_emote_by_MenInASuitcase

POO-BAH. EVEN to Star Trek! that is not going to happen. First, we will overpopulate the planet, and start killing all the oceans;all starve to death, kill each other for remaining food, kill off all the wild animals, and exhaust all the fish in the ocean.Spin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_DroneguardSpin_it_good_by_Droneguard

REALITY TRUMPS IDEALISM’S view of mankind.Shootin_ma_layzor_at_yous_by_Droneguard

no sci-fi predictions of dictatorships ruling all the countries, and making life very restricted, with no privacy, and every single thing you have ever done, in records, probably with the government.YEAH, NO PRIVACY, with a capital P. (Oh, there is one author who predicted a lot of this, the guy who wrote “1984” and “animal Farm”. Unfortunately, he was right on the money.)bookworm

one of the strangest things, no sci-fi predictions that young people would stop reading books,Smoking stop writing, not be able to sign their names, beethoven_by_angelratdesigns and give up trying to think. –getting-stoned Conformism rampanthookah_by_chimajra-d30bpce . And no predictions that all customer service by young people in every single retail store  ,you can think of, would vanish with your youth.NO RETAIL EMPLOYEES! You are supposed to go to these huge massive marketplaces and do your own service in their store.dumbasssmiley-level1_don004

I was getting pretty depressed  and discouraged about all those sci-fi predictionsforever_busy_by_kinnisonarc-d3cafuwof the future, that didn’t pan out, when I suddenly remember one that did; all my business dealings with the huge massive website called “AliBaba”bek047.gif  chinese emoticon run and owned by the Chinese.bek047.gif  chinese emoticon Talk about customer service! bek047.gif  chinese emoticonThey have got it! The most reasonable and polite and helpful salespeople and customer service people I have ever met in my life. And considering I have nobek047.gif  chinese emoticon Mandarin Chinesebek047.gif  chinese emoticon, and they only have broken English,bek047.gif  chinese emoticon they certainly helped me figure it out.

yes, nobody predicted in_portal__by_super_hedgehog-d4mxa94 all those wonderful sci-fi ramblings,Emoticon___Portal_Splat_by_SchwanX24 that an Asian nation would grow big and powerful, and just about handle all the products of the world, and even have a very well –working website, where you could bridge the gap between nations, and look for products that America never makes.(okay, okay, I know all the downside of China’s  employment, and slave labor. How could I not know?)_trapped__by_Sneffy

I bet that if I went to them, complaining about how to do microwave popcorn, they would be endlessly courteous and helpful. Just over popcorn!ems512popcorn___free_avvie_by_r0se_designs-d3ici9qgif

America, wake up and smell the popcorn! You have gotten rid of all customer service in every company in the United States, of any kind, and you just slit your own throat. panicatthediscoplz– Because people want good customer serviceemo23.gifrolleyes, and now they can’t get itquestionable anywhere, so they stop buying your stuff.guess who has very_free_icon_emote__totoro___heart__by_mochatchi-d8iedi7 good customer service? AliBaba website.

and that was never predicted in the future, that the white racePacman_Machine_by_Davidgtza2 would become so downgraded, and inept, they could not do_fly__by_KimRaiFan anything anymore, couldn’t produce anything, and sat there looking dumb with drool dripping out of its mouth. “Let the Asians do it. im-a-tardLet them make everything!”so when you try to buy a product, or try to retail it, it doesn’t exist. Made in America, you have to go to China. Not because you WANT TO, just because our spoiled little white race has forgotten how to do anything._bored__by_royaba-d3307fk

AMERICANS, you let everybody else do everything for you, including machines. smiley-rolling-joint

what a future! I don’t think anyone wanted to predict this one! moonconspiracy

suddenly, I don’t want any popcorn. I’ve just lost my appetite. A good way to stay on my diet, look at reality._clueless__remake_by_arrioch

Yeah, science-fiction is great,desk_dream_by_krissi001-d2xup7k it did predict many technical miracles, except it never told how we wouldn’t know how to use them.–that our wonderful foods would taste like cardboard; that billionsbandplayin123 of folk would keep cramping the planet to the bursting pointWot_emotes_by_Droneguard–and that though we did have futuristic marvels, mankind himself would not improve, or gain huge knowledge or advancement. –and instead just get MOLDY.   The same old human beingsget_of_mah_lawn_by_de_mote from ancient ages, who still hated logic, hated verystamp_collection_by_krissi001-d671pp5 smart scientists, and went around acting out the barbarism of violent ak47 (1) chimpanzees. Mankind still of  the Dark Ages. Harry_Potter___Hufflepuf_by_Momma__G

Welcome to the future-present; it makes ancient times seem appealing.what_emoticons_are_made_of_by_devlant

(Sandraminadotty, in Eugene, Oregon, lost my appetite back in the past. _blowing_tree__by_luckylinx 😦 )  😦